Avoiding the D Word

Can you believe 41 Million people watched the Barbie Movie?

After those numbers, I know it’s not just me who LOVES the movie. Are you also the 9 Million people who returned to watch it again? Because if so, SAME.

If you have not seen this awe-inspiring movie, I promise it’s nothing stupid. In fact, it’s the most god damn real movie I have seen in a long time.

Long story short, the real world is filled with tons of real problems and Barbie Land is the perfect place to forget every problem that has ever existed. Until, the problems reach Barbie Land.

I know, I know… you might not want to read about this movie, but don’t worry we are getting to the dark and hopeless part soon. :D

There is one point in the film where Barbie states, “Does anyone ever think about Death”? All the other Barbies are horrified. I repeat, HORRIFIED.

Barbie is forced to back track and pretend she is no longer thinking about the darkness of death.

During this horrific moment, I completely related with Barbie. Didn’t you?

I think about Death daily. I think about dying more than anyone I’ve ever met.

I even grieve those I haven’t even lost yet.

Anxiety and the truth that everyone is going to die is such a harsh reality isn’t it?

So why not just jump into the unknown future like a know-it-all? Because I know the future, come on now.. you know this. ;)

I often tell others, “Let’s not act like we have endless amounts of time! Let us live it up and get the most out of being together.” Normally, the response starts and ends with, okay Addie!

And THEN, We fall back into our normal jobs and to our normal everyday routines.

Back. At step one. All over again.

I can’t blame people for wanting to live their normal lives. But when shit hits the fan, it’s so detrimental. It’s often us thinking nothing “bad” will ever happen. And maybe it won’t! Especially when you don’t see death as bad. (I promise I am working on this)

Then there is my side…

“Bad” always feels like it’s going to happen. We work, sleep, eat, travel, spend time with friends and family, fall in love, make money to buy that new house or car, birth our children into a crazy messed up world, retire and then in the end of our story we just lose it all in maybe a painful circumstance called…death…

Dark AF… right?! Or is it just me… lol

I do believe that there is transitioning and going to heaven. But this blog post is about the darkness of just the death and loss itself. You know the part all of us humans experience. Every. Single. One of us.

To be continued. Stay tuned for PART 2: Welcome to the light side

Note: If you are open to discussing death, like myself. Feel free to reach out! I know I am not entirely alone in this. When we decide not to avoid the conversation, we will come together and realize we are all in this together. We can support each other the best when we find we have the utmost support.